Tuhan Tolong Aku

          Rasa macam nak nangis. Setiap saat dan detik Allah bukak pintu hatiku untuk berfikir tentang semua dosa yang telah aku lakukan. Rasa sangat-sangat bersalah, dengan Allah, dengan manusia.. Kenapa Allah turunkan ujian sebegini padaku?? Kalau nak difikirkan memang pedih sangat ujian Allah ni.. Tapi inilah hakikatnya. Kita tak boleh nak pertikaikan apa yang telah Allah turunkan pada kita. But, we just have to deal with it dengan redha pada apa yang Allah dah bagi.

         EGO. manusia kenapa perlu ada ego. Kenapa perlu rasa diri tu betul sangat hanya bila kau berpegang pada ego? Kenapa tak boleh nak mengaku diri sebenar lah yang salah and takde kaitan dengan orang lain. Kenapa masih perlu lagi melihat kebelakang?? Kenapa perlu mempersalahkan peristiwa yang telah berlaku? Semua tu Allah yang susun untuk beri kita lebih kuat.. Itulah pengalaman. Kan pengalaman tu mematangkan kita bukan melatih kita untuk jadi pendendam dan pemendam. Please banish your ego. it doesn't suit you.

          To my beloved _____ & _____ i'm feel really sorry. I wanna make an apologise.. but because of an ego, I seriously can't do it.Ya Allah tolong aku. Aku tak nak disebabkan ego Kau halang untukku masuk ke syurgaMu.. Kenapa perlu renggang kan hubungan sillaturrahim sedangkan kau tahu memutuskan sillaturrahim adalah salah satu sebab doamu tidak dimakbulkan. Sayang dan penatlah kau berdoa bagai tapi doa tidak dimakbulkan hanya kerana ego.

       Tolong sayang diri sendiri. Memaafkan dan meminta maaf adalah salah satu kunci kebahagiaan. Hidup tidak akan tenang tanpa kemaafan dari Tuhanmu dan kemaafan dari manusia. Inilah ujian Allah padaku. Tak mampu untuk meminta maaf dan memaafkan. Tolong Ya Allah lapangkan hatiku.. Aku mohon pada Mu tolong aku, Permudahkan aku. Kaulah Al-Wadud.. Tanpa pertolongan Mu aku seperti hilang segala-galanya, ZERO.

Let Us think about this!

MANUSIA...

Cukupkah sekadar menjadi manusia????

MUSLIM...

Cukupkah sekadar menjadi muslim????

MUKMIN...

Cukupkah sekadar menjadi mukmin????


Manusia, Muslim, dan mukmin.. wajib meningkatkan tahap keimanan dan takwa.

Semakin meningkat tahap ketakwaan orang itu, tandanya dia mencari keredhaan Allah dan mencari Rahmat Allah.... 

Orang yang mendapat rahmat Allah. Orang itu bahagia diakhirat kelak...

~Let us try to achieve Mardhotillah~

~ Solusi Isu 36

SOMEDAY.....

Never give up

Assalamualaikum w.b.t... answer it and you'll get merit (^^).  sorry 4 all beloved friends and readers especially my silent readers.. There are such a long time that I haven't post anything.. why?? Because of why?? the reason is I don't have any confidence.. I quite lost my confidence for everything since I have started my study back at IIUM.. And at this time I'm still trying to achieve success... Maybe you guys might give me some kind of advices ??? I will really appreciate it!!  

And seldom

My heart said....  :

I hope these tears will stop running someday

someday after this darkness clears up

I hope the warm sunshine dries these tears

when I feel that I'm getting tired

of seeing myself exhausted

I want to keep all the dreams

that I've kept so hard

every time I feel that I'm laking

in many things

most of them I don't have

I lost strength in my legs and drop down

everyday I hold out

comforting myself

it'll be okay

day by day it makes me feel

a little more afraid

I tell myself to believe in my own self

but I don't

now I don't know how much longer

I can hold out

but wait.. it'll come

and it'll come

although the night is long

the sun will come up

someday my painful heart will get well

I hope it helps me out now

I hope the God will help me

I don't have ANY confidence

anymore to comfort myself...

* Pray for me yaaaa.. thanks a lot for reading this 

Eidul Fitri ??? Hari Raya???

Assalamualaikum.w.b.t

Such as often, please answer it and you 'll get merit for it.. InsyaAllah.(^^) Alhamdulillah today 23 Ramadhan. Are you ready for hari raya?? some of you maybe would answer it with this: YES OF COURSE! I have waited this for a long time!! I'm eager for it!  

Raya sakan

And maybe someone would answer it with this : OH MY GOD! I don't wanna celebrate hari raya! I really really still not ready yet! I don't khatam alquran yet.. I dont make infaq yet.. I dont...... I dont...... and many more!

google picture (bukan saya ye ni)

Anddddddd do you wanna know which is my answer??? he2 I rather choose answer number two! yes! of course this is because I don't fully collect the rewards and all the advantages of this month Ramadhan...

Try asking yourself.  IF THIS IS MY LAST RAMADHAN, IS IT ENOUGH FOR ME TO CELEBRATE HARI RAYA???  

take your time to think about this

If  your answer is no. so dear please fill in this several few days with good deeds and good charities..

Always remember my words : نتعب يوما و نستريح غدا  means "kita berpenat-penat hari ini dan kita berehat-rehat esok hari (kemudian hari)"

fighting!

Last but not least, for my own-self and for all readers :

 DO NOT REGRET IN THE FUTURE!!

Think about it....

p/s : Dear Beloved Readers, often pray for me.. pray for my success in here and in the hereafter. Thanks (^^)

TAZKIRAH RAMADHAN ~ Kapal Besar Itu Bernama Tawakal

Ada dua orang pengembara yang ingin melakukan perjalanan kesebuah tempat. Untuk dapat mencapai tempat tersebut keduanya menaiki sebuah kapal yang amat sangat besar.Di dalam kapal ada dua kelompok yang sangat berbeza.


 Kelompok pertama, wajah mereka nampak begitu cerah. Sedangkan kelompok kedua, wajah mereka nampak begitu pucat dan kelelahan sambil memangku banyak barang bawaan di tangan dan kepalanya.Sebagaimana para penumpang lainnya yang ingin menempuh perjalanan jauh, Kedua pengembara tersebut pun membawa barang-barang yang amat berat. Ketika sampai di dalam kapal, pengembara pertama langsung meletakan semua barang bawaan di lantai kapal. Sedangkan pengembara kedua masih saja memikul barang bawaannya.


Pengembara pertama memberi tahu kepada pengembara kedua agar dia meletakan barang-barangnya di lantai kapal. Karena dia sudah berada di atas kapal yang sangat besar di mana dia bisa bebas meletakan barang bawaanya di mana saja dia suka. Sehingga dia bisa beristirahat untuk sampai ke tempat tujuan yang amat jauh.


Pada awalnya pengembara kedua tetap teguh pada pendiriannya untuk tetap memikul barangnya sampai ke destinasi, dia khuatir barangnya akan hilang dan rosak jika diletakan di lantai kapal. Di berfikir banyak penumpang lain di sekitarnya yang walaupun barang yang dibawa lebih banyak dan berat, tetap memangku barang-barang bawaanya sendiri.


Namun Karana semakin lama keadaannya semakin lemah, dan pemilik kapalpun telah memperingatkan kepadanya jika ia tetap enggan meletakan barang-barangnya dikapal, dia akan dilemparkan kelaut sehingga binasa. Diapun melihat banyak penumpang yang memangku barang bawaanya sendiri satu persatu mengalami kejadian yang mengerikan.Ada yang dilempar kelaut oleh pemilik kapal karena sudah berkali-kali diperingati untuk meletakan barang bawaanya dia tetap tidak mahu.


 Ada lagi yang kerana kelelahan akhirnya mati tertimpa barang-barang bawaanya. Ada lagi yang kerana tidak kuat membawa barang-barang bawaanya dia membunuh dirinya sendiri.Akhirnya pengembara kedua meletakan semua barang bawaanya di lantai kapal. Setelah meletakannya dia merasa lebih baik dan lebih nyaman.

Sahabat sekalian tahukah kita hakikatnya pengembara-pengembara itu adalah kita, manakala barang-barang bawaan adalah beban-beban kehidupan kita dan kapal besar itu adalah tawakal kepada Nya.


Teramat banyak dari kita yang begitu angkuh merasa diri sanggup memikul beban-beban kehidupan ini sendiri. Tanpa pernah sedar bahawa sebenarnya Allah telah menyediakan ruang besar tempat kita meletakan beban-beban kehidupan hidup kita yang teramat sangat berat itu.Ruang besar itu bernama tawakal kepada Nya. Betapa naifnya kita jika merasa bahawa kita sanggup mengatasi setiap masalah kehidupan ini sendiri.

Seorang mukmin adalah orang yang cerdas dalam memahami kehidupan ini. Ia begitu mengenal kehidupan ini yang penuh dengan cubaan dan rintangan, walaupun demikian ia juga telah sangat arif bahawa semua beban-beban itu tidak akan memberatkan kehidupannya jika ia meletakannya di tempat yang telah Allah SWT sediakan.

Seberat apapun beban yang di amanahkan Allah SWT kepada nya segera ia letakkan di tempat bernama tawakal itu melalui sujud-sujud panjangnya, melalui keistiqomahannya dalam beramal baik, melalui sedekah-sedekahnya, melalui munajatnya di sepertiga malam seraya dengan penuh semangat dan usaha yang bersungguh-sungguh terus berusaha menjalani kehidupan ini.

Kalau kita mahu jujur terhadap diri sendiri, pastinya kita akan sedar bahawa kita teramat lemah untuk menjalani kehidupan ini tanpa pertolonganNya. Jika kita merasa kuat lantas mengapa kita tidak dapat mengambil kembali sesuatu yang telah diamabil lalat dari makanan kita, mengapa kita tidak menahan nyawa orang yang kita sayangi ketika sakaratul mautnya, mengapa kita tidak bisa menghadirkan kebahagian dan ketenangan jiwa bila-bila saja sesuka hati kita.

Jika semua kita dapat memahami kehidupan ini dengan baik. Kita dapat memahami bahawa Allah telah menyediakan ruang luas agar beban-beban kehidupan itu tidak memberatkan kita.

Maka tidak akan ada orang yang hari-harinya nya dipenuhi dengan bermuram durja, kita tidak kan mendengar banyaknya cerita seseorang mengakhiri kehidupannya dengan menggantung diri atau meminum racun hanya kerana tidak dapat membayar hutang tiga ratus ringgit yang harus dilangsainya, dan segala macam bentuk keputus asaan lainnya akibat tidak pernah memahami makna kehidupan ini.

Sahabat, akankah kita masih tetap angkuh untuk terus memikul beban-beban kehidupan kita sendiri ataukah kita telah menyedari bahawa kita teramat lemah untuk memikul beban-beban itu sendiri.

Sehingga kita akan segera meletakannya diruang yang Allah telah sediakan sepertiga malamnya, di sujud-sujud ketika menghadapNya, di majlis-majlis kebaikan hamba-hambaNya yang soleh. Tentunya hanya kita yang dapat menjawabnya.

Oleh: Muhammad Fatih

British Catholic Priest Converted to Islam ~ IDRIS TAWFIQ

  

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.. Allahamdulillah again Allah assists me to write and tell you about Idris Tawfiq and I really appreciated and feel grateful to Allah when I read about Idris Tawfiq yesterday (an article). Do you know him?? Idris Tawfiq is a British writer who became a Muslim a few years  ago. Previously, he was head of religious education in different schools in the United Kingdom. Before embracing Islam, He was a Roman Catholic Priest. He now lives in Egypt. Iqraa TV Egypt was interviewed him. Hope all readers would read patiently till the end of the story ok?? 

Iqraa TV : Mr. Idris, Assalamualikum w.b.t

Speaking in Brussels at the European Muslim Youth Conference

Idris Tawfiq : Waalaikumssalam w.b.t

Iqraa TV : I want you to tell me when was the first time you were touched by Islam?

With the Lord Mayor of Nottingham

Idris tawfiq : Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. The First time I was touched by Islam was when I came to Egypt. Before I came to Egypt, what I know about Islam was what everyone in the west knew about Islam it comes from the television. I knew that Muslims were terrorist and that they were cruel to ladies and that Islam was about suicide bombers and very bad things. This was what we hear all the time and since September 11 it got worse and worse.When I left the priesthood ( I used to be a Roman Catholic priest) I was feeling down. So I decided to come on a holiday. So I looked up in the internet where i could get a good holiday. I came to Egypt not knowing about Muslim, not knowing about Egypt and I arrived just thinking there'll be sand, pyramid, and palm trees. I came for a week and that was the most extraordinary week in my life because for the first time I saw ordinary,simple,sweet Muslims, and I said to myself but these aren't the people I've seen on the television. They are not the people the radio tells me about. These are not fanatics, extremist, they are just ordinary people but were very religious and for example in the main station in Cairo,when the call to prayer sounded, I was astonished to see ordinary man just going down on their knees and praying and it really touched my heart just seeing in the streets a little boy selling bananas and he greets you with Assalamualaikum! and he asked me -how are you? Alhamdulillahirabbilalamin I've never seen that before and I've never seen people in England or France or in America with such a deep faith and it touched my heart absolutely. I saw kind and very sweet Muslims.

Iqraa TV : How did your image of Islam changed when you returned to London?

Sharing a joke in the park in Kuala Lumpur

Idris Tawfiq : When I returned to London, I went to school, I was teaching in a school again about religious education but this time I was teaching not just about Christianity but about Buddhism, Sikhism, and all other religions including Islam. so I had to teach about something I didn't know anything about except for what I've seen in Egypt. Every night I would read the books ready to teach the children. The more I talked and the more i read I liked what I read and I found myself. Subhanallah! in front of a class of thirty students and i found my throat getting choked and when I mention the name of the Prophet Muhammad s.a.w, I found tears coming into my eyes. Many of these boys they were Muslims and they were refugees from different Arab countries. It was their example that lead me to Islam. Can I tell you the first Ramadan I was in the school, the boys came to me and said :"Sir we have nowhere to pray Solat Zohor and your room is the only room with a carpet." so I said okay you can pray on my room. For the whole month they prayed.I sat at the back and I watched and I listened and by the end of Ramadhan I knew the prayers because on Friday they would say the prayers out loud. I knew what the movements of the prayers were in their example taught me about Islam. Egypt was the catalyst and working with these children really taught me what Islam was like.

Iqraa TV  :What happened to make you declare Syahadah?

During his visit to Lincoln

Idris Tawfiq : In London, there is a big mosque (London Central Mosque). every Saturday they have talks for non-Muslims. I went there to get information(not to become a Muslim). The last saturday I went, there was Yusuf Islam, so I said to him, "brother Yusuf what does a person do to become a Muslim? I dont want to become a Muslim but just what does a person do?" He said : "Well, Muslims believe in one God." So I said, "I believe in one God" and he said, "Muslim pray five times a day". I said, I know the prayers and I know them in arabic. He was very surprised. "well.. Muslims fast during Ramadhan.". Actually. I fasted with the boys in Ramadhan. He looked at me in the eyes and he said to me " who are you trying to fool?".  At that moment the azan sounded and they all went upstairs for solah Maghrib, while everyone prayed solah Maghrib I sat at the back of the mosque( at the back of the prayer hall) and the prayer began. And Subhanallah really touched my heart. I cried and I cried and I cried as the prayer went on. At the end of the prayer I went up to Yusuf Islam and I said " Brother yusuf I want to declare syahadah now." In front of him and all the other brothers present in the mosque, I declared that there is no God but Allah and Muhammad is the messenger of Allah and it changed my life....

Alhamdullilah.. can you see?? how amazing this story.. I really really enjoy to read this story.. I hope that you too and proud to being a Muslim. ok that's all maybe from me astaudiu'kumullah wa fi amanillah . And you should be answer it with ma'assalamah wa iyyakum.  (^_^)  

At the European Parliament in Brussels

Vocabulary :
Assalamualaikum  = Peace be upon you
Waalaikumussalamwarahmatullah = Peace and mercy be upon you
Alhamdulillah = Praises be to Allah
Subhanallah = Glory to Allah
Bismillahirahmanirrahim = In the name of Allah the most Gracious and most Merciful
Astaudiu'kumullah =I leave you with the protection of Allah
Fi amanillah = May Allah save you
Maassalamah = Good bye
Iyyakum = You too

~Our Aim for RAMADHAN~

Assalamualikum w.b.t ( respond it first n you'll get merit for it! )

Alhamdulillah, then alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah again and again towards Allah.Because He often gives His unlimited loves for us without forgetting to change day to night everyday. And He never tried to stop the rotation of orbit.Eventhough we always do sins and mistakes. Allah never forget us.. but.. try asking yourself, are we keep remembering Allah??  Are we keep loving Him? Are we keep trying to be a good servant for Him? Are we keep changing ourselves better?? nay or yes??  never mind try to answer by yourselves..


 Today 19 Syaaban, 21 july 2011.. we only have 11 days till now to prepare for Ramadan coming soon. How about  our preparation and goals for Ramadan??

ok i wanna give you some ideas.. maybe it can help you..  :

~ recite alquran 30 juzuk (khatam alquran)
~make early preparation to perform solah (solah fardhu)
~perform solah sunat ba'diyyah and qabliyyah plus solat tarawih
~do solah dhuha (2 rakaat only each day)
~donate something good for Islam
~after or before sahur we might could commit solah tahajud

* wish me and you luck!